(Gr)Apple

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the incessant:

“I want” “I can’t” “I’ll never”
———- ———- ———-
this is time’s
uncatchable beam, silence,
always a little bit
leaving—
(to make sure staying undressed
is a choice)
—————————————-
track
the refusal of “I am” —feel it
shaking
on the way to blank space __________
terror that rips
the who or what,
twists rotted roots—begs
the prayer
out from under, pulls
till you sub-render,
waits till you
submerge
—— ——- ————- ——-
if -I- is
to live here any longer
then it has to be
that the spirit lifts the chest even
as it grieves it—
that the -I- praises
the chance to be
buried alive
within the grave of its lover (mater)—
that the heart beats, passion! hear me!
behold me!
Seen.
—————– —- ——– — –
these words are true
though ruptured by their signifiers
just as your darkness
did make a shadow—
but whose?

——-

when caught in a doorway, being
is itself fullness, already so fiercely
unpacked
—————————————-
polarized pressures
obviously repeating
the int-ernal (inf—, et—)

dynamism is
in our eyes, turning to ask:
which figure came first?
————————————-
this is the confessional;
exposed nape of neck,
incredibly loud—
I am now (at) the
bottom of the bowl, scraped
and scraping

it’s true:
every murderous moment
curves to the apple

— Sofia Kohl Enggren

Sofia Enggren is a poet and performance
artist from Los Angeles. She is
currently in her final semester as an
undergraduate at Naropa University’s
Jack Kerouac School.

Send poetry submissions of 250 words or
fewer to poetry@boulderweekly.com. Poets
will be invited to read their published
work at 8 p.m. on Thursday, March 26 at
an event hosted by Starwater, 4949
Broadway, Suite 117, Boulder.