Home / Articles / Views / Uncensored /  Tyler Clementi died for your sins
. . . . . . .
Give Through iGivefirst
Thursday, October 7,2010

Tyler Clementi died for your sins

By Pamela White

Dharun Ravi got to college to find out his roommate, Tyler Clementi, 18, was gay and quickly shared that fact with the Twitterverse. Clearly, he felt that Clementi’s sexuality was a significant enough issue to merit posting online. And he didn’t stop there.

As we all know, he later used his webcam to stream live video online of Clementi having sex with another male and invited others to join him in this gross violation of privacy.

“Anyone with iChat, I dare you to video chat me between the hours of 9:30 and 12. Yes it’s happening again,” Ravi tweeted.

Clementi discovered this, and, in a surge of despair, left campus, drove to the George Washington Bridge and jumped, ending a life full of promise — only one of five gay teens to commit suicide in recent weeks.

While people debate the role Internet technology and changing notions about privacy played in this tragedy, the real underlying cause is Ravi’s discomfort with Clementi’s sexuality. Rather than respecting Clementi’s privacy, Ravi treated the act of two men making love as if it were a freak show.

But what Ravi did wouldn’t have mattered much if it hadn’t happened in the context of a society that agrees with him. Allow me to explain.

I’m left-handed. About 10 percent of human beings are born left-handed. There was a time left-handed people were burned at the stake and consigned to hell. That fell out of favor for a more tolerant approach: shame and silence. For centuries, left-handed people were forced to conceal their difference or made to learn to function as right-handed people. This continued into my lifetime.

My first-grade teacher at Park Primary School in Boulder’s Martin Park neighborhood used to take perverse pleasure in humiliating me in class.

“Look, everyone, Pamela is writing with her left hand,” she would say, taking the pencil out of my left hand and putting it in my right. “But we don’t do that. We write with our right hands.”

My parents eventually told her to knock it off, and the school was forced to buy left-handed scissors and other implements that enabled me to participate in classroom activities not as a converted rightie, but as a left-handed child.

Being left-handed is a difference. It is an aberration. It is not normal. But for those of us who are left-handed, it is completely normal.

Imagine if one of my coworkers — rabble-rouser Jefferson Dodge, for example — went online and tweeted about how he’d seen me writing with my left hand. Imagine that he rigged my office with a webcam and streamed live video of me writing with my left hand.

People would be utterly underwhelmed by such an offering, and they would probably conclude that he — not I — had issues.

Live streaming video of someone writing with her left hand? Who cares? And what’s wrong with the guy who posted this?

That’s how this should have played out. Live streaming video of some college kid having sex with another man in his dorm room? Who cares? And what’s wrong with the guy who posted this?

Unfortunately, two realities converged. The first reality is America’s Puritan obsession with sex. If one or more people are having sex with anything or anyone, Americans want to watch it online.

The second reality is more sinister.

Americans are by and large still in the business of shaming and silencing gays. As a result, Ravi’s decision to stream Clementi’s sex life to strangers carried weight, especially with Clementi, who must have felt shamed and humiliated beyond all redemption.

But it’s not Clementi who should feel ashamed. It’s Ravi and fellow Rutgers student Molly Wei, who allegedly helped him, and every person who tuned in to watch Clementi’s private life unfold online. More than that, society itself should feel ashamed.

Too many Americans cannot accept that some men are attracted to men and that some women are attracted to women and that for these individuals this difference — this aberration — is completely normal.

When I confront people who dislike gays, they’re always quick to explain that they do not hate gays. They’re certainly not homophobic. They become angry at the very suggestion. There’s nothing wrong with them, after all. It’s gays and lesbians who have the problem.

Then they tell me that being gay is unnatural, gross, disgusting and even repugnant to God. They show up in droves at the polls to prevent same-sex couples from having the same rights as heterosexual couples — the right to marry, to inherit, to have spousal job benefits. And somehow they deceive themselves into believing that they are taking a stand on behalf of decency and goodness.

But in truth what they’re doing is dangerous and deadly. Their bigotry, their ignorance, their arrogant, self-satisfied morality tell gay and lesbian kids that they should be ashamed of what they cannot help but be.

The same Internet that enabled Ravi to stream his anti-gay bigotry live for the world to see also preserves a glimpse of Clementi for those of us who didn’t know him. Watching him play his violin, something he did with skill and passion, it’s clear that we as a society have lost something precious. But our loss is nothing compared to the agony his parents must feel. He was so young.

Of course, this is a free society.

People can hate gays, lesbians, blacks, Jews, women, etc., if they so choose. But the rest of us have an obligation to denounce their intolerance and to do it loudly so that gay teens grow up hearing that they are cherished, not feared, not hated, not alone.

Respond: letters@boulderweekly.com

  • Currently 3.5/5 Stars.
  • 1
  • 2
  • 3
  • 4
  • 5
No Registration Required

Thank you so much for that post. I have noticed in these last few days that attorneys are really trying to save face with these kids and it is so obvious I think that this was a crime against Tyler because he was gay. Even the fact you talked about that Ravi outed Tyler through twitter escapes people who claim he turned on his cam by accident...he didn't know anyone was in the room..that notion is ridiculous..I agree also atleast I was able to hear Tyler play the violin which I would have never been able to if this didnt happen, I guess you have to look at things that way sometimes

A Call For More Charge




Very well said, I wish I wrote the article myself.

My mother grew up in a Catholic orphanage in New York, her hand left hand was slapped with a ruler three times a day until she learned to write with her right hand and neatly too.



I refuse to take the rap for Ravi and Wei.

But I DO demand they take the full responsibility for this hate crime: http://gravelle.us/content/tyler-clementi-hate-crime-victim

...provided the prosecutor can muster the fortitude to pursue those charges...





What a tragic loss of life. An individual, regardless of sexual preferance has an expectation of privacy. While I agree with most of your article I do not agree that you can pass judgement on individuals who have the Right to vote as they choose. This is a Democracy and one that continues to evolve. Most of the country does not agree with the you on this matter. It is by the way most of the country that has done most of the tax paying that allow students to get ivy league educations, most of the fighting and dying on foreign soil and most of the back breaking work. Something most students have yet to learn but they will. Our form of government set up by our founding fathers was designed to be slow. 

Of course this is a free society...protest to the top of your lungs, petition. But respect those who have gone before who have a few more years under the belt and who simply do not agree with everything you have to offer.

I don't have ichat and I don't even know how to twitter.



It escapes Rob that one of the reasons my family members and I have fought in many wars is to give kids like Tyler rights! I am ashamed and repulsed that the country that I have served for continues to let any American die in vain! It's not about gay or straight and the minute that this country remembers that, we will truly be a free nation. I agree that it's tax payers that vote Rob but the last time I checked gay and lesbian Americans also pay taxes. Yet you get all benefits warrrented you by this country, they don't and that is a fact. Am I gay? Nope, but I have friends who have died and fought for your country Rob who aren't straight like me and it does not and will not make them any less deserving of living, loving and being who my savior put them on this earth to be! I wish people like Fred Phelps and the rest of the hate mongers would stop using my Lord as their satanic tool of hate!!! The last time I read the Bible which is every single day, God does not use vengence as a tool to destroy a life he created! Faith doesn't work that way and all of America needs to realize that. The young life was taken because of ignorance and pure unadulterated HATE!!! Plain and simple. Let any greasy toad of a lawyer stand up and defend killers but they are killers just the same. I think as do many I talked to that this jerk got his own sexual pleasure out of watching these two young men and was embarrased to say it so he acted repulsed! I find car accidents hard to see but I don't record them and brag that someone died in them!!!! If this had been two straight people having sex and one was black or married, would we let these killers go? Hell no!! I'm tired of getting shot at across seas to come home and hear all I have done was for nothing! All Americans still don't haved freedom.


As a gay man I want to thank you for your comments. I only wish more felt as you do!